Selfish, party of one, your table's ready....

Tonight, after talking through a problem with a good friend, I realized that all this time I've been completely selfish in my pain. I thought that I was the only person going through something while everyone else is fighting a battle as well.

I didn't even know what was going on with him until tonight and now I realize I've been so blind to the goings-on around me, especially with my friends.

It's not even that my problems are so big, it's just that sometimes I think I'm a freak because I feel some of the things I feel. At times, I really think I'm screwed up - like the way my mind works and especially how easy it is for me to fall for someone. (I've always hated that thing about myself. I get attached way too quickly.)

But tonight, I saw what problems he was having to deal with and my heart just went out to him. He had so many emotions - regret a huge one.

I try to live my life by "no regrets" - that everything is a learning experience, and that's what I told him. And although sometimes there is just NO talking to him because he's hard-headed and stubborn, I think it gave him something to think about.

So goodnight, my friend. Sleep well and pray, keep God your focus and everything will work out according to His plan.